Saturday, September 14, 2013

Day 24: Bowling w/ Bailey, Stressful Experience and High BGs, Being Cut Off at the Knees and Good Friends Helped


September 11 2013

8:24am
FBG 126

1:19pm
Forgot to check my two hour PP today, not a good thing to do but I feel well. Did not hear the alarm go off, got busy with several things I have neglected in the past coupla few months.
And poor Bailey begged to be played with, I actually felt well enough to lay her favorite game “bowling” where I toss her favorite glow in the dark ball down the hardwood hallway and she scuttles s fast as she can after it. She’s a good baby girl and this afternoon I am going to give her a bath. I filled her pool this morning and by the afternoon the sun should’ve warmed it enough to bath her
I suppose it is a good thing that I am immersing myself back into my life, the joys of my life.
I am going to try a little Tai Chi after lunch then I am going to relax and finish watching the new Star Trek I was too tired to watch yesterday and maybe take a 20 minute nap.

2:00pm
BG 91

3:56pm
PP BG 140

Asked some questions in one of my support groups and included my background information.  Someone I had never seen before, and who I found out later upsets people made me his latest target.
My post served as a presumptuous jumping board for this bully who had the need to show his wonderfulness - and did not even read what I said.  Questions were asked, well demanded of me -of info already in the post. I simply asked for suggestions and tips for speeding up the weight loss and dealing with a potential plateau and a substitute for the nightly lo carb cheese product not for a berating but i got slammed by this young man.

I just needed some clarification on the diets and some suggestions because other wonderful and supportive people in this particular support group have been on this journey with me and I trust them. I feel like I was cut off at the knees. And it makes me angry at myself for being such a wimp. I have not lost confidence in my treatment or my progress but realize how fragile I still am.
I so dislike this disease, it has attacked me from the inside out. It has turned me from a strong independent woman to someone I don't recognize.
But people like Wendy, Thor, Doc, Juli, Dianne, Di , Sandy and Michael are helping me find that woman again.

 6:48pm
BG 172

10:20pm
PP BG 148

11:40pm
BG 106

 Finished out the night in good shape, was able to relax and distressed some, thanks to good friends <3

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